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Rating: Mostly PG13 with some NC17
Authors note: There are two maybe three versions of this one. I found ideas I liked and wanted to write but didn't work in one story. So right now you'll get the first parts that are the same in all versions. Then when that's done I'll add links to the other versions. I know Truth Revealed isn't finished but it will be as soon as I overcome the writers block or someone writes the remaining parts on the trip to
Disclaimer: I own only those you don't recognize.
Chapter 11
Briena sighs staring at the ceiling 'Its been three months since I last saw Spike.' she rolls to her feet groaning as she feels her stomach rolls also "Not again" she groans holding her head in her hands. Suddenly she jumps to her feet running into the bathroom she barely reaches the toilet as she empties her stomach. After a few minutes she glances at the clock "I'm going to be late again" she mutters getting to her feet
Half an hour later: The Bar
"Your late" the bartender remarks as Briena enters
Briena shrugs in response "Sorry. I wasn't feeling very good" she smiles weakly "I'll be back in a minute" she walks into the employee’s lounge where she passes her friend Tasha "Hey Tash" she greets
Tasha looks Briena over "Still feeling sick?" she asks her voice worried and sympathetic
Briena nods grabbing her apron "I've never been this sick." she states "Must be the flu"
"Or morning sickness" Tasha says. Seeing the startled look on Briena's face she frowns, "Come on you never thought about that?"
Briena shakes her head "The last guy I was with can't have kids"
Tasha snorts "And you believe that line?" she asks with a faint laugh as she walks out of the room
Briena frowns her hand resting on her stomach 'I can't be' she gasps going to the calendar she flips backwards four months 'I had my period after Nathan and I broke up.' she sits down her mind whirling 'I haven't since the night in the caves' she realizes
Tasha returns to find her friend staring at the wall with a pained expression. "Tom's waitin' for you" not getting a response from Briena Tasha frowns "What's wrong?"
"I can't work tell him I'm not feeling good" Briena stammers standing
Tasha frowns at her friend's reaction "Are you OK?"
"I've got a call to make call" she says heading out the back door
Sunnydale: Willie's
Spike stares into the glass before him ignoring the demons around him
"So uh Spike what's the deal?" Willie asks
Spike looks at the short bartender annoyed "Go 'way Willie" he growls
"Geez Spike just worried about my favorite customer" Willie says throwing his hands up in a sign of surrender
"Nothings wrong" Spike snaps as his cell phone rings. He pulls the phone out of his duster "What the bloody hell do you want?" he growls in greeting
Vegas: Motel
Briena stares at the blue indicator strip in her hand "Spike" she whispers
Sunnydale
Spike frowns at the sorrowful voice at the other end. Standing he heads outside "What's wrong?" he asks softly
"I need to talk to you"
Spike takes out a cigarette lighting it "What about?"
On the other end Briena stares at the object in her hand shaking her head "I need to talk to you in person"
"OK" he agrees "Where are you?"
"Vegas. At the Three Aces. Room 121"
"Are you OK?" he asks
Briena sighs "No"
"I'll be there the night after next."
" 'kay"
"I'll see you then"
"All right." Briena swallows "Spike?"
"Yeah?"
"I love you" she whispers hanging up the phone
He smiles sadly as the words echo in his mind 'Love you too pet'
Vegas
Briena curls up on the bed "Spike will make everything better" she whispers her body giving way to her exhaustion
Two nights later
Spike knocks on the door numbered 121. He leans against the doorframe as the door opens " 'ello cutie" he grins at Briena. Seeing her pale face he frowns "You OK luv?" he asks reaching out he caresses her cheek
Briena smiles faintly nuzzling his hand with her cheek. "Spike" she says softly
Spike moves into the room closing the door behind him "What's wrong?" he asks. He frowns as Briena pulls away from him rushing into the bathroom. "Brie?" he calls as he hears the sound of her retching. Shrugging out of his duster he walks into the bathroom to find Briena hanging over the toilet. "Briena you OK?" he asks crouching behind her
Briena shakes her head leaning back against his shoulder "My stomach hurts" she whimpers
Spike kisses her temple wrapping his arms around her waist. He frowns feeling something off
Briena stills closing her eyes as Spike's hand moves across her lower abdomen slowly. "Spike" she whispers
Spike closes his eyes as he feels the small bump "Briena" he sighs sadly as he senses the faint signs of life
Briena stands abruptly going to the sink she rinses out her mouth. She feels tears slide down her cheeks. She turns around sensing Spike behind her she slips her arms around his waist burrowing close. "Spike" she sobs clinging to him inhaling the familiar scent
"Shh luv." he soothes his own heart saddened 'She carries some wankers child'
As though she can hear his thoughts Briena pulls back holding herself her eyes glued to the floor "Spike it’s yours" she whispers
Spike frowns barely hearing her whisper "What?"
Brown eyes meet blue as Briena looks at him with tears in her eyes. She grabs his hand placing it on her lower abdomen "I've only been with you these last few months."
"What are you saying?" he demands hoarsely
"This baby is yours" she tells him feeling dizzy she leans against the counter "Oh man" she groans
Spike snaps out of his daze as he sees the look on Briena's face. "Briena?" he asks worriedly grasping her arm
Briena smiles weakly "Dizzy."
"Come on luv" he pulls her against him leading her to the bed. "Lay down" he orders
Briena lies down curling up on her side as Spike sits down, "Spike?"
Spike stares at his hands "How the bloody hell did this happen?"
"I think I'm about 4 months along"
Spike looks at her "The caves"
Briena nods
"Bloody Hellmouth" he growls clenching his hands he feels his demon face appear. He stands pacing beside the bed muttering under his nonexistent breath running his hand through his hair
Briena watches Spike pace sensing his barely restrained anger "Your angry" she states sitting up holding the pillow against her chest
Spike stops pacing hearing the sadness in her voice. "Brie" he begins sitting on the edge of the bed "I'm not angry at you." he soothes kissing her forehead
"I know."
"This shouldn't have happened... it wasn't supposed to" he sighs touching her cheek "What do you want to do?"
Briena frowns "What do you mean?"
Spike looks away "It’s your choice pet"
Briena stares at him in surprise "You don't want me to have it"
"I didn't say that. Whatever you decide I'll back you luv"
Briena sighs absently touching her stomach "I'm too far along for an abortion."
"You want to keep it?"
Briena tilts her head thoughtfully as she looks at him "It’s either keep it or give it up for adoption" she runs her hand through her hair. "You have a say in this Spike." she lays back down propping herself up on her hand "What do you want?"
Spike sighs laying down facing Briena "I want whatever makes you happy. There are good and bad things to both options."
"If we keep it we'll have to tell my parents." she sighs "I definitely wouldn't like that"
"They wouldn't either" he agrees
"They'd stake you" Briena remarks with a yawn
Spike touches her face "You look bloody exhausted. Why don't you get some sleep? We'll talk more when you’re rested"
Briena nods pulling the covers up she looks at Spike sleepily, "Spike?"
Spike sits up removing his boots "What pet?" he asks looking at her
"I'm sorry" she whispers
Spike smiles "You have nothing to be sorry for Briena." he leans down kissing her tenderly "We didn't know this would... or could happen. Its no ones fault" he assures
Briena nods sleepily
"Get some rest cutie" he orders softly
"I love you Spike" she mumbles drifting off to sleep
"I love you too Briena"
Before dawn
Spike looks over at Briena as she lies beside him. He smiles 'A baby.' he shakes his head 'Bloody hell' he closes his book pulling Briena into his arms. He kisses her hair as he closes his eyes. Just as he's about to fall asleep he feels Briena's heart begin to pound. Concerned he opens his eyes looking down at Briena as he hears her whimper in her sleep. "Shh" he soothes rubbing her back
Briena slowly opens her eyes her mind foggy from the dream "Spike?"
"You have a dream luv?"
Briena straddles his hips leaning down her lips inches from his she looks searchingly into his eyes "Do you love me?"
Spike places his hand on her waist his other moving her hair out of her face "Yes. I love you"
Briena smiles kissing him passionately "I love you too" she whispers against his lips "What do you like better? Dad or Daddy? Or the ever stuffy Father?"
Spike grins in understanding "So you want to keep it?"
Briena nods "I do"
Spike rolls her onto her back kissing her fiercely "I kind of like the idea of being called Daddy"
Briena grins "Daddy it is" she pulls his him back down for a kiss "What do you say we celebrate some"
"Sounds good" he smirks
Later
Briena smiles at Spike tenderly as she caresses his face "I do love you Spike"
"I love you too"
"So are you cool with this?"
Spike nods "I am. What I'm not cool about is telling Angelus and the Slayer"
"I'm not either" Briena admits
"When do you want to tell them?"
"I want to take some time to get used to this."
Spike nods "I understand. We'll tell them when you’re ready."
"I still can't go home"
"I guess that means we'll be moving a lot" Spike says
"Yes" she kisses his chin "I better get some sleep. I have a doctor’s appointment this evening."
"Want me to come?"
Briena shrugs "If you want"
"I want"
Briena curls against him slowly drifting off to sleep
Early afternoon
Briena leans down kissing Spike's cheek "Spike?"
"Ugh" he groans
"I'm going to go run some errands. You want anything?"
"Blood an' smokes" he mutters
Briena nods leaning down she kisses him "I'll be back in an hour"
An hour later
Briena walks in the door closing it quietly behind her.
"Hey pet" he greets not rolling over
Briena places the container of blood and food into the fridge. Putting the shopping bags down Briena crawls up the bed sitting on Spike's back she leans down kissing his cheek "Hi"
Spike opens his eyes grinning at Briena "You look happy"
"I'm always happy after shopping"
"What time is it?" he asks
"Um" Briena looks at the clock "Its 2"
"I'm missing my soaps" he states
"OK" Briena climbs off his back. Going to the fridge she takes out a container of juice and Spike's breakfast. Crawling into his arms she gives him the container of blood. "Here"
"Thanks" he says taking it
Briena leans back against his chest as they watch TV.
1 hour later
Briena sighs lacing her fingers with Spike's.
"What's wrong?" Spike asks
Briena grins "I wanna paint your nails"
"Go 'head" he kisses her shoulder "The old polish is chipped off"
"Yeah" Briena says happily kissing his cheek "I'll let you paint my toenails later"
Spike chuckles " 'kay luv"
Briena scrambles off the bed going into the bathroom she finds a bottle of black nail polish. She joins Spike on the bed. "Hey Spike?" she asks as she starts working on his nails
"What?"
"Why did you paint your nails black in the first place?"
"I didn't. Dru did."
"Oh. Why?"
"She was bored one day so I let her. It just became habit after that"
"Oh." she starts on another nail. "Can I ask you another question?"
"Yes"
"Why'd you dye your hair?"
"I was having issues one day so I just did it."
"Are you ever going to go back to your normal color?"
"Maybe one day. Why?"
Briena shrugs "Just curious. I mean I've only known you like this. What color is your hair?"
"Brown I guess."
"You guess?"
Spike groans "Pet I haven't seen myself in over 200 years. My hair’s been this color for over 30 years." he frowns "Why are you asking me this anyway?"
"Just thinking about what the baby's going to look like"
Spike kisses her cheek "Like its Mum" he whispers his lips trailing to her ear lightly sucking. Hearing Briena gasp in pleasure he chuckles "You like?"
"Yes" she sighs turning her head she kisses him
Spike takes the bottle of nail polish out of her hand placing it on the nightstand.
Briena turns around straddling his thighs she kisses him. When Spike tries to deepen the kiss Briena pulls away "Don't you want to finish your show?"
"No" Spike growls nuzzling her neck lightly sucking on her skin
"Oh" she sighs holding his head in place
That evening
Briena is standing in front of the mirror "I hate doctors" she grumbles jumping in surprise as Spike wraps his arms around her waist.
"Scare you luv?" he asks with a chuckle
Briena glares up at him "How many times have I told you to warn me when you’re going to do that"
"Sorry" he laughs kisses her forehead "What's this about you hating doctors?"
"Doctors are evil" she pouts
"No they aren't" he chastises
"They are. Besides when was the last time you were around one?" seeing his grin she rolls her eyes "Not one that you drained"
"You take out all the fun" he sighs in defeat
"So you don't know that doctors are evil"
Spike hugs her "As long as they keep you two healthy I don't see them to be evil"
"They are. Anyone who has a license to poke, prod, and draws blood is evil"
"Hey thanks. You know I have been telling them I'm evil but no one listens"
Briena turns around "You are what I call a somewhat reformed evil." she kisses him "Besides I never mind when you drink from me... after all it ends with both of us happy."
Spike grins "That it does."
"You know if you are really good maybe I'll make you so happy you purr all night" she leans forward licking his jugular. "Cuz I like it when you purr." she whispers
Spike groans "Pet if you do that we won't get out of here"
"Fine with me" she chuckles
Spike pulls away "As fun as that sounds we have to go."
"I know" she reluctantly agrees
Later back at the Motel
Briena slams into the bathroom barely reaching the toilet as she loses her dinner. "Ugh" she groans
"You OK luv?" Spike asks concerned
Briena shakes her head hanging over the toilet "No" she groans. For the rest of the night Spike comforts Briena as she hangs over the toilet.
"You feel better Brie?" he finally asks
Briena nods sleepily "Tired" she says curling against his chest
Spike kisses her head picking her up "Time for bed then" he says carrying her to the bed. Laying her down he removes her shoes and pants before kissing her forehead "Get some sleep"
"Where you going?" she yawns
"To get something to eat"
"Don't go"
"I'll be back in an hour or so... I promise." he stands "I'll wake you when I get back"
" 'kay" she yawns watching as he walks towards the door "Spike?"
"Yes?"
"Don't kill anyone"
Spike nods "I won't." he says walking out the door
Next evening
"Where are you going?" Spike asks seeing Briena walk out of the bathroom dressed
"Duh work" she replies pulling on her shoes
"You aren't patrolling" he states
"I know. You are. I'm going to my other job"
"Waitressing" he growls in disgust
"Yes waitressing. It gives me something to do and makes some quick cash 'cause Daddy can't pay off my credit cards all the time"
"You don't need the bloody job. We're in Vegas pet, a few rounds of cards and we have money for a few days, even weeks."
"Yes and we have to worry that someone will be suspicious of why two unknowns can clear out a casino in one night"
"I don't like the idea of those bloody pricks checking you out" he growls pulling her against him
"Oh?"
Vamping he kisses her his fangs grazing her lip "Your mine" he growls sucking on her lip
Briena whimpers at the feeling pushing Spike away "I may be but don't pull this 'I'm a guy I rule' thing because you and I both know you maybe a guy but I am stronger."
"Bloody Slayer genes" he mutters
"Watch it." Briena growls "If we have a girl she'll most likely have the Slayer gene."
"Why do you say that?"
"Mom has it. I have it. Lise has it. That means it’s a fair assumption that any girls born in my family will have it."
"Bloody hell" he groans
"I'm going to work now." she heads towards the door "And Spike if you are going to stop by behave." she orders slamming the door shut behind her
The Bar
Spike enters the bar his eyes scanning the darkened bar for Briena. Grinning as his eyes fall on Briena 'Bloody hell she's a goddess' His eyes flash as he sees a man staring Briena. "Bloody prick" he growls
Briena's head snaps in the direction of the growl rolling her eyes. "Behave" she mouths
Spike grins innocently taking a seat at the bar "Jack Daniels straight" he requests lighting up a cigarette.
Briena walks over to the bar wrapping her arms around Spike's neck "What are you doing here?"
Spike grins looking at Briena "What else would I do?"
"Um terrorize some helpless tourist" she nuzzles his neck
"Hey Briena, who is this?"
Briena looks at her friend "Tasha Spike. Spike Tasha" she introduces
"Briena, where have you been hiding him?" Tasha asks smiling flirtatiously at Spike
"No where" Briena replies
"Tasha, take these to table two" the bartender requests
"How do you feel pet?" Spike asks as Tasha walks away
Briena smiles "Fine" she kisses his cheek "Don't drink too much"
Spike keeps an eye on Briena as she works
"Quite a girl there" the bartender states
Spike looks at the bartender "That she is mate" he grins looking back at Briena "That she is" he says taking a drink
Chapter 12
A week later
Spike frowns hearing Briena gagging in the bathroom "Briena are you OK?" he asks leaning against the doorframe
"Ugh I've been better" she groans
Spike dampens a washcloth pressing it against Briena's brow "What did the doctor say about this?"
"She said it could last throughout the pregnancy. She gave me some nausea pills"
"Have you taken one?" he asks
Briena shakes her head "I haven't been able to try" she groans curling up against the tub "How did mom deal with this four times" she sighs
"Why don't you call her" Spike suggests sitting beside her
Briena leans against him "I'm not ready to deal with them."
"Pet we're going to need to tell them" he says resting his hand against the slight bump on her lower abdomen "soon"
"Can't we just wait until the kid graduates from high school?" she asks jokingly
Spike sighs "Why are you being so difficult about telling them?"
"I'm not"
"You are. Every time I suggest it you change the subject or get upset"
"I do not" she protests
"Yes you do" he argues "You don't want to tell them that we're involved do you?" he demands when she doesn't answer he stands running his fingers through his hair "You don't do you?!"
Briena stands walking past him into the bedroom he grabs her arm "Spike" she winces at his grip
"Tell me the truth Briena... you don't want them to know." he growls
Briena pulls away staring at the floor she shrugs "I don't know Spike. I'm scared of what could happen if we tell them."
"What could happen?" Spike asks angered
"They might get angry enough to stake you. I don't want that." She whispers. "I don't want to tear the family apart." She looks at him, "Us involved and having a baby could do that." She sits on the bed pulling her knees up to her chest, "Not only are you my best friend but Daddy's as well. It’s taken you and Daddy years to get passed the whole Drusilla thing and be friend’s again." she looks at him sadly "I don't want the fact that we're involved to cause you more years of hating each other."
"Briena" he whispers sitting beside her "if we tell them now we won't hurt them as much as we would if we wait"
"I need time Spike. I'm just not ready yet." she says crawling onto his lap "I love you Spike" she sighs
"I know" he kisses her temple "I love you too"
A few weeks later: the bar
"So have you told your parents yet?" Tasha asks gesturing towards Briena's middle
"No." Seeing the look on her friend’s face she sighs, "I know I should. Spike keeps telling me that."
"You’re what 5 months?" Tasha asks
Briena nods "Give or take a few days" she looks at her stomach "Thank god I don't show" she winces as a sharp pain hits her
"You OK?" Tasha asks
Briena nods "Yeah. I'm just starting to get tired" she smiles sleepily her fingers combing through her hair
"Pregnancy will do that to you" Tasha remarks "My first I spent the whole time trying to stay awake"
Briena smiles "Mine is spending time over the toilet"
"Still?"
Briena nods "Doctor said that I'll probably deal with morning sickness for the whole pregnancy"
"How's Spike taking that?"
"Good. He's always been pretty good at dealing with me when I'm sick. You should've seen him when I had the flu when I was 7. Mom was still in school and he and Dad took care of me and the twins after school and when we were ill. Dad had to take the twins to the doctor so Spike was home taking care of me."
"How long have you known Spike?" Tasha asks
"Since I moved in with my Dad before my parents got back together. Spike's been my best friend since we first met" she rubs her temples "Tasha can you cover for me?"
Tasha looks her over and nods "Go home you look terrible"
"Thanks. I owe you" she grabs her jacket heading out into the bright sunlight. 'I just want to go curl up in bed with Spike' she smiles as she feels a slight movement in response 'You miss your Daddy too' she walks down the street to the motel. She carefully enters the room so to not let in any sunlight. Kicking off her shoes and stepping out of her jeans Briena crawls into bed curling up against Spike.
"What are you doing here?" he asks pulling her close "Aren't you supposed to be at work?"
Briena nods "Don't feel good" she whines
"What's wrong?" he asks concerned
"Head hurts"
"I'm sorry luv" he kisses her head "Get some sleep then you'll feel better"
10 PM
"Briena" Spike whispers kissing her ear
"Huh?"
"I'm going to go eat you want me to bring back anything?"
"No. Just come back soon" she mumbles sleepily "What time is it?"
Spike glances at the clock "10. I'll be back in a while"
Briena nods pulling the covers over her head she drifts back to sleep
An hour later
Briena is awakened by a sharp intense pain through her body. "Damn" she groans rolling up on her side she swallows a wave of nausea "You aren't liking this either huh?" she mutters resting her hand over the small life
After midnight
Spike opens the door expecting to find Briena still in bed he frowns "Brie?" he calls
"Spike" she says from the bathroom door
Spike looks at her "You OK?" he asks seeing her pale her eyes filled with tears he walks over to her resting his hand against her forehead "Pet you feel warm" he says concerned
"Spike" she whimpers "I don't feel good"
Spike picks her up laying her down on the bed "What's wrong?" he asks moving a strand of hair out of her face
Briena winces at the touch curling up "I hurt"
"Where?" he demands "Your stomach?" he asks
Briena nods painfully
'Bloody hell she could lose the babe'
"I hurt everywhere" she whimpers looking at him tears falling "Make it stop Spike"
"Shh pet" he soothes kissing her forehead "it'll be OK" he wraps her in a blanket "Let's get you to the hospital" he picks her up carrying her out to his car he places her in the passenger seat
"But I hate hospitals" she whines
"I know luv" he responds going to the driver’s side "but we need to get you and the babe checked out" he says starting the car
Briena whimpers as pain shoots through her body "Hurts"
"I know. It'll be OK"
"SPIKE" she gasps doubling over in pain
"Briena?" he asks worried at her tone
"Oh god" she whimpers as words and images flash through her mind "the Oracles"
"What about them pet?"
Briena looks at him pain and sorrow in her eyes "They say we aren't ready." she curls up placing her head on his thigh "They say we aren't ready" she repeats as darkness claims her
"Briena? Luv?" he calls in concern touching her forehead "You’re burning up." he presses his foot to the floor
10 mins later
Spike rushes into the Emergency room carrying an unconscious Briena "Hey she needs a doctor"
A nurse looks over at the pale blond man carrying a young woman in his arms "What happened?" she asks rushing over
Spike lays Briena down on a gurney "She passed out on the way here" he answers "She's 5 months pregnant and said that her stomach was hurtin'."
"What's her name?" a doctor demands joining them
"Briena" Spike answers swallowing a wave of bloodlust
"Who are you?" the doctor asks
"Her boyfriend" Spike answers
"Is she allergic to anything?" asks a nurse
"No."
"We need to examine her someone will be out to talk with you in a minute" the doctor says as they push the gurney down the hall into a room
Spike follows stopping outside the room so he can listen and watch as they work.
"Doctor she's loosing a lot of blood" a nurse calls
"Her fever has spiked"
Spike listens as Briena's heart rate slows down he listens for the smaller heart beat but finds it absent 'the babe is dead' he realizes
20 mins later
Spike looks up to see the doctor walking out of the room "How is she?"
The doctor sits down beside the blond man "I'm Dr Jashen"
"How's Brie?"
"Your girlfriend is doing fine. We managed to stop the bleeding. Unfortunately we were too late to save the baby"
Spike nods
"Your girlfriend is very lucky, she should be dead"
"She has a way of surprising everyone" Spike says softly
The doctor stands "They are moving her upstairs for further observation."
"Thanks" Spike stands as they wheel Briena out of the room
30 mins later
Spike leans against the wall staring out the window at the night sky when he hears Briena's heart rate accelerate. He goes to the bed sitting on the edge taking Briena's hand in his own "Briena luv calm down" he soothes
The door opens and in walks a nurse and the doctor "What's this?" the doctor muses going over to the monitor "Her heart rate is fluxuating"
"She's just dreaming" Spike tells him
"We'll need to sedate her"
"No" Spike snaps trying to keep his demon in check
"She is in serious distress. She needs to relax"
"She will be in more distress if you sedate her."
"Spike" Briena calls sitting up
Spike sees the panic in her golden gaze. "Briena" he says softly blocking the nurse and doctors view. "I'm right here"
Briena throws her arms around his neck burying her face in his shoulder "Spike" she whimpers
"Calm down" he whispers pulling her onto his lap. Quietly the doctor and nurse walk out of the room. Spike sits there holding Briena as she cries herself back to sleep. He lays her down brushing a kiss across her forehead "I love you Briena" he whispers. He sits beside the bed until just before dawn hits the horizon. Leaning over he kisses her cheek "I'll be back tonight pet" he heads towards the door stopping when he notices the doctor's file sitting on the counter. He tentatively picks it up opening it he scans through it finding what he was looking for 'stillborn female baby. 1 pound 4 ounces. 7 inches long.' Spike closes the file setting it down he looks over at Briena "A girl" he whispers. He heads out to the hallway where he finds the nurse "She's asleep. She should sleep the rest of the day. I'll be back tonight"
The nurse nods "How can we get a hold of you?"
"Three Aces room 121." he tells her
4 AM
Spike enters the motel room tossing his duster on the chair and kicking off his shoes. He lays on his back staring at the ceiling thinking of the night’s events. Soon he falls asleep
Briena's dream
//Briena looks around the bright area smiling as she sees Spike standing with his back to her. Quietly she walks over putting her hands over his eyes "Guess who?"//
Spike's dream
//Spike finds himself standing in a bright area. He grins as hands cover his eyes laughingly asking "Guess who?"
"Briena" he says turning around he picks her up kissing her. "What is this? Where are we?"
"This is where I lived until Mom sent Dad to hell."
Spike looks around wincing at the brightness "How come I'm not dust?"
Briena smiles "Things here are different then on our plane. Here anything can happen."
"Why are we here?" he asks
"Mommy" a small voice calls out
Spike watches as a little girl with brown hair in pigtails wearing overalls throws herself at Briena's legs.
Briena laughs crouching down she hugs the little girl "Hello sweetie. Aren't you supposed to be with your aunt?"
"I guess" the little girl smiles "I heard you where here. I wanted to see you."
Briena smiles "I'm glad to see you too." she looks up at Spike "You know who she is don't you?"
Spike nods crouching beside Briena "Hello little one"
The little girl grins "Hi Daddy" she throws her arms around his neck "I miss you Daddy" she whispers
"I miss you too pet" Spike replies standing with the little girl in his arms "You look just like your Mum" he smiles at Briena
Briena smiles back
"What's your name?" Spike asks
"You named me Daddy"
"I did?" he asks surprised
The little girl nods
"What did he name you?" Briena asks curiously
The little girl smiles sadly at Briena "I can only tell Daddy" she leans close to Spike's ear whispering the chosen name
Spike grins "I like it"
"Child" a voice calls
"Uh oh" the little girl groans. Spike and Briena look over to see the male and female Oracles. "I better go"
Spike puts her down "It was nice to meet you"
The little girl smiles "Will you and Mommy visit?"
Spike looks at Briena who nods "We'll come and visit." she promises
"Bye" the little girl waves walking away
Briena watches as the little girl disappears. She leans against Spike staring at the Oracles. "Why do you do this?" she demands
"Do what child?" asks the female
"Take everything from me"
"We haven't taken everything from you" the male objects
"Yes you do" Briena yells tears falling "Since before I was born"
Spike hugs her "Calm down luv"
"I have lost so many friends and now you take away my child. I know the world isn't fair but I thought that the Powers That Be were." she says angrily "I'm 18 and my life has never been normal, I was fine with that. But the few things I have ever had that would be considered normal you take from me. I fall in love and to normal people that is normal. Sure he's a vampire so that isn't exactly normal but that's fine." she closes her eyes "Then you tell me that I have to leave my family and my friends." she glares at them "I do that... without complaining. But this one is the worst thing you have ever done to me. You tell me you are doing what is best for me but how is that taking my child is for the best?"
"We did not expect it to happen... at least not now"
"So you knew that this was possible?" Spike asks "that we would be able to have a child together?"
The male nods "We knew since the moment you were created William"
"So you knew that I would be turned?" Spike asks
The female nods "It was written"
"The Oracles and the Powers they know all but they won't always admit what they know" Briena tells him
"It isn't time for you two to be together. You have a journey ahead of you before the time is right" the female tells them "But right now my child" she looks at Briena "it has come time to say goodbye to your mate."
"But I don't want to" Briena protests
"You have to if you want to be with him in the future"
Briena nods looking at Spike sadly "I guess once we wake up we'll have to say goodbye."
Spike smiles sadly "Hey we had 13 years together what's a few apart" he touches her cheek "Besides when you can come back we can be together"
"If Daddy and Momma haven't staked you by then" she smiles faintly
"I'll be good." he kisses her forehead
"You need to get back children" the female tells them
"Wait I have a question" Briena requests
"Yes?" asks the male
"I know that you say we can't be together on the other plane. Can we see each other here? We promised her we would visit"
The two Oracles look at each other "Yes you can come to see the child"
Spike smiles "Thank you"
"You are welcome lower being" nods the male
Briena smiles at Spike "I love you"
"I love you too"//
8 PM: the Hospital
Briena looks towards the door as it opens "Hi" she greets softly as Spike enters
Spike sits on the edge of the bed "How are you feeling?" he asks smoothing her hair out of her face
"Better" she closes her eyes leaning into his touch "She was beautiful"
"That she was" he agrees
Briena looks at him "The nurse brought in the paperwork. They filled out everything all we need to do is add her name and sign them." she looks at Spike curiously "What did she tell you her name was?"
Spike smiles sadly "Emma Carine"
"Beautiful name"
Spike nods picking up the paperwork "Brie are you sure you want me to put my name as her father?"
"Yes." she says firmly "after all you are"
"Its possible luv that Peaches will find these."
"I know. If he does and asks you if it’s true you can tell him what you want. If you'd rather not its fine"
"No it’s not fine" Spike snaps "I don't want some bloody ex of yours to think Emma was his."
"Spike calm down" she soothes
Spike picks up the pen signing his name 'William Ashington'
"William Ashington." Briena smiles "Your mortal name?"
"Yes"
"You never told me it"
Spike shrugs "I never had a reason too"
"Oh" Briena takes the pen signing her name 'Briena Summers Kelin' she frowns "What are we going to do about a last name?"
"What sounds better? Emma Carine Kelin? Emma Carine Ashington?"
"Or Emma Carine Kelin Ashington?"
"I like either way"
"How about we go with Kelin for now and when we're back together we change it to Ashington" she suggests
"Sure luv" he agrees
Briena sighs putting down the pen
"What's wrong luv?" Spike asks
"It’s weird"
"What is?"
Briena curls up on her side "Just yesterday we were curled up in bed feeling her move and now..." she sighs sadly "it’s like she never existed"
"To us she existed" he says "that's all that matters"
Briena sits up caressing his cheek lightly "Your right."
"Aren't I always?" he asks with a grin
Briena smiles sadly "I'm going to miss that"
"What?"
"Your grin"
Spike leans his forehead against hers "It'll only be for a while. Before we know it we'll be back together"
"It could be years" she sighs
"It could be" he shrugs "I'm not going anywhere"
"Spike?"
"Hmm?"
"Will you promise me one thing?"
"Anything"
"Be careful"
"I will"
Briena nods "Thank you" they pull apart as they hear footsteps outside the door.
"Hello Briena" the doctor greets "How are you feeling?"
Briena shrugs "Nothing hurts" 'other than my heart'
The doctor opens the medical record "You have made an incredible recovery. Your fever is gone heart rate is normal."
"When can I leave?" she demands
"Excuse her she isn't fond of doctors"
Briena shrugs "Dad always said I take after Mom" she looks at the doctor "Can I leave tonight?"
"I'd prefer to keep you here over night"
"I'm fine." Briena insists
"Pet maybe you should listen to the doctor" Spike suggests
Briena glares at him "I have to get out of here"
"If you leave it’s against my advice"
Briena shrugs "I've never done what people wanted"
"All right if you want to check out it'll be against medical advice"
Spike sees the look on Briena's face "She's set doc. No getting her to change her mind"
"I'll go have the nurse print out your check out papers and bring you some clothes" the doctor says walking out the door
"Brie maybe you should listen to him."
"I can't stay Spike. The longer I do the more I want to say screw 'em and stay with you. But I can't and the longer I'm near you its going to be harder to leave."
The door opens and the nurse walks in "Here are some clothes" she puts the clothes on the bed
"Thanks" Briena nods her eyes on Spike. After the nurse leaves Briena changes from the hospital gown into the sweats and t-shirt. After she's dressed Briena and Spike head out to the nurses station
The nurse hands Briena the paperwork "You can find billing downstairs"
Briena nods "Let's get out of here"
15 mins later: the Motel
Briena enters the room sitting on the bed she reads through the papers "Spike, what do you want to do about the baby..." she trails off sadly
"I'll take care of it." he sits beside her "All of it."
"Spike your broke" she reminds
"I'll play some rounds and make the money" he shrugs
Briena nods standing "I'm going to go take a shower" she walks into the bathroom turning on the shower.
Spike leans back against the headboard reaching for a cigarette he lights it. He frowns when he hears sobs coming from the bathroom concerned he stamps it out standing he knocks on the door "Briena" he calls not getting an answer he enters the bathroom to find Briena sitting in the bathtub sobbing. "Brie" he whispers stripping out of his clothes he joins her pulling her into his arms "Its OK luv" he whispers rocking her
"She should be with us Spike." she sobs "I want my baby"
"I know. I know" he holds her as she cries "I want her with us too" he says hoarsely
Briena looks at him seeing tears she wraps her arms around his neck "I love you" she whispers
"I love you" he whispers
Briena looks at him "I need you Spike"
Spike looks at her "Brie this isn't a good idea"
"Please" she whispers kissing him fiercely
Later
"You OK?" Spike asks pressing a kiss to her hair
Briena nods lacing their fingers "Spike?"
"Hmm?"
"I'm scared" she admits
"Why?"
Briena looks at him "We've only been apart for a few months in 13 years. When we were apart those months when you were with Drusilla I missed you so much"
"I missed you too" he kisses her head
"But when we were apart these last months it was hard but not as hard as it was when you where with Dru. It felt like we weren't apart"
"Maybe part of you knew you were carrying Emma"
"Maybe"
"Do you know what Emma means?"
"No"
"It means whole, complete."
"How did you know that?"
"I stopped by the gift shop and found a baby names book. I looked it up. Carine means little darling"
"Something tells me that Emma would have been a Daddy's girl. She would have had you wrapped around her little finger"
"Like her Mum." he chuckles
"I wanted her Spike... more than anything in my life."
Spike kisses her hair "I know."
"She was something I never thought would happen" she sighs sadly "with anyone not just you. Everyone thought that. I think that's why Mom and Dad didn't protest as much as normal parents would have finding out their 16 year old daughter was having sex." She hears the growl smacking him on the chest "Hey what's the deal?"
"I don't like the idea of any of those bloody pricks touching you" he growls "they don't have the right" he touches her neck
Briena looks at him reaching up to her neck she touches his hand "You have no reason to be jealous. After all you’re the only one I've ever been with who matters. The others were just diversions. They weren't that much fun after all they couldn't have survived me at full strength"
"You at full strength would have ended up with those guys never gettin' it up" he leers
Briena straddles his hips "See being with you works out" she slowly lowers herself onto him "I can be myself sure you might end up with bruises and a few broken bones but I won't kill you" she whimpers "you make me scream with every little touch. The others never could"
"Briena" he growls as she slowly rocks "bloody hell pet are you trying to kill me?" he asks grabbing her waist
She shakes her head "Slow Spike. Make it last." she leans down kissing him "Make it a memory" trailing kisses to his ear "then fuck me as hard as you want. Anyway you want." she looks at him her eyes flashing gold
"Hmm a challenge" he purrs
"You up for it lover?"
"Oh yeah" he smirks
Late next morning
Briena slowly opens her eyes to find Spike asleep beside her. Smiling she thinks 'he looks so innocent' she rolls her eyes 'but the hell he is' careful to not wake him she gets out of bed heading to take a shower. A few minutes later she walks out of the bathroom to find Spike sitting up in bed smoking "Hi" she greets softly as she opens the closet
Spike smiles to himself as he sees the bruises and scratches on her back and sides. "You OK pet?"
Briena looks over at him lifting an eyebrow she shrugs "You?"
"I'll be healed in a few hours" he smiles holding out his hand "C'm 'ere"
"What?" she asks going over to the bed she sits down
"Are you really OK?" he asks concern showing in his eyes and voice
"If I was human I'd be back at the hospital. I'm not human I'm fine." she sees the unconvinced look on his face "OK I'm a little sore but nothing that won't heal by tonight." she starts to stand
"That's not what I'm talking about." he says grabbing her arm
Briena closes her eyes "You mean about Emma." she opens her eyes looking away from him "The fact that she's not here" she touches her stomach "and that we aren't going to be taking her home in four months?" she shakes her head "No I'll never be OK." she pulls away from his grip "I gotta get going" she pulls on a pair of jeans and a T-shirt. Tossing her clothes and makeup in the duffle bag she grabs her jacket.
Spike pulls on his jeans standing he grabs Briena's arm "I love you" he growls kissing her passionately
"I love you too" she whispers staring at him "Take care of them for me"
"I will" he promises releasing her arm
Briena smiles sadly "Be careful. I don't want to come home and find out Mom staked you for something"
"I'll be good" he smiles sadly
Briena shoulders her duffle bag "Rooms paid up for the rest of the month." she opens the door careful to avoid letting in any sunlight she smiles sadly at Spike over her shoulder "Bye" she whispers
"Bye" he echoes as the door closes
A week later: Sunnydale
Spike opens the front door tossing his bag on the floor he goes into the kitchen to find Angel sitting at the counter reading the newspaper. "Hey" he greets
Angel looks up to see the tired look on his childe's face "Hi Spike where have you been?"
"Vegas" Spike answers opening the fridge
"Oh darn I was hoping someone had staked you" Buffy sighs entering the kitchen
"Sorry to disappoint you Slayer" Spike says grabbing a container of blood he leaves the kitchen grabbing his bag he goes upstairs.
"OK was that Spike or does he have a twin? I mean I just gave him a chance to crack a joke and he didn't." Buffy frowns sitting beside her husband. "That is totally out of character for Spike"
Angel smiles "Spike never was one to fit the mold."
"I know" Buffy smiles back "He's always been an odd duck" she furrows her brow "or would it be odd vampire?"
Angel chuckles "Either one works with Spike"
A month later: Sunnydale
"Angel has Briena called?" Buffy asks entering the kitchen to find the twins, Rory, Angel and Spike milling around
"No" Angel answers
Buffy looks at Spike, "Has she called you?"
Spike shakes his head "No"
Buffy sighs sitting down "This isn't like Briena." she states "I mean she didn't even call on her birthday."
"Probably has a lot going on" Angel suggests "she's in a new territory she needs time to adjust. When she does she'll let us know how she is."
'Not bloody likely' Spike thinks
"I guess" Buffy shrugs looking at the twins, "So you two how was school?"
"It was fine" Damian answers
"Did anything interesting happen today?" Angel asks
"Food fight at lunch" Lise offers
"And it wasn't my idea" Damian adds
"Cuz you where in detention" Lise snipes
"Hey, not like I wanted to be. If someone had kept her mouth shut I wouldn't have ended up in trouble"
"What happened?" Buffy asks
"She was spying again" Damian replies
"Was not. I just happened to overhear and told the teacher"
"And now I have a week of lunch detention."
"What were you going to do Damian?" Angel asks
Damian shrugs "throw water balloons off the roof. No biggie"
"On school grounds" Lise reminds
"Not during school hours" Damian argues
Lise glares at her brother "It was a mean prank"
"Like I care" he shrugs "I'm gonna go do my homework" he heads out of the kitchen.
"Dinners in 30 minutes" Angel calls
"Later" Spike walks out of the kitchen
Chapter 13
Somewhere in the
"What do you want?" Briena asks instinctively knowing it’s the female Oracle "come to tell me dreaming of him is wrong?"
"No I came to tell you that you need to find the others."
Briena looks at her "The others? How?"
"You feel each other. The younger ones need to be protected and taught."
"Where?"
"You'll find them. But beware he is searching too. If he finds them we will lose them... for good"
Briena nods "I'll find them."
"I know."
Three months later: Sunnydale
"Hey Giles" Buffy greets as her Watcher enters the living room "What's the deal?"
"Uh I have some rather interesting news" Giles starts
"What?" Angel asks curiously smelling the Watchers excitement and concern
"I got a call from a Watcher in the midwest he told me that someone cleaned out one of the most deadly groups of vampires in that area."
"Briena?" Buffy asks hopefully
Giles nods "According to what he told me I'd say yes."
"So we know she's OK" Buffy smiles at Angel "I'm going to go call
"At least Buffy now has peace of mind" Angel says relieved
"I thought that she would enjoy the news" Giles smiles
That night
//Briena smiles at Spike "I miss you"
"I miss you too" he grins
"Mommy. Daddy" Emma shrieks happily racing towards them throwing her arms around their legs "I missed you"
Spike crouches before the little girl "We missed you too Em" he smiles kissing Emma's cheek "How are you pet?" he asks
"Things are boring right now" Emma scowls
Briena smiles "Its like that here sometimes. You get used to it"
Emma smiles back "I know. We have fun though."
Briena sits down pulling Emma onto her lap she hugs her tight "I'm glad you like it here"
"What's it like on the other side?" Emma asks curiously looking at her parents
Briena looks at Spike "Things are different on the other side."
"How?" Emma asks
Spike sits beside Briena "Its hard to explain Em."
"Why?"
"Well on the other side Daddy wouldn't be able to be outside like this." Briena tells her
"Not without having a vacuum nearby" Spike laughs
"I know" Emma giggles
Briena smiles, "Oh really?"
"Uh huh" she nods with a grin she jumps up
"Where are you going luv?" Spike asks
Emma points to a small area of flowers then takes off running towards the flowers.
Briena leans against Spike "She'd be a few weeks old by now"
"I know. I think about it too" Spike replies
Briena looks up at Spike "God I miss you" she whispers
"I miss you too" Spike responds leaning down he kisses her lightly
Briena leans into the kiss seeking the comfort and connection that only Spike provides. She breaks the kiss clinging to him "It’s so hard"
"I know" he agrees
"I wake up from a nightmare and as always I think 'Go to Spike. He'll make it better' then I remember I can't come to you. God it hurts"
"I know I wake up and reach for you before I remember you aren't there." he smoothes her hair out of her face
"Mommy" Emma says happily
Briena looks up to see her daughter smiling "What baby?"
Emma crawls onto her lap "Love you Mommy and Daddy"
"Love you too Em"
Briena kisses her hair "I'll always love you Emma" she whispers hugging her daughter//
Sunnydale
Spike stares at the ceiling 'Emma would be two weeks old' he realizes sadly 'I miss Brie and Em'
Somewhere in the
"Who are you?" a young girl demands
"You know who I am" Briena replies "They call me Briena"
The blond haired girl nods "They call me Julie"
"Did they tell you?"
Julie nods "They said it was time for us to find each other"
"How old are you?" Briena asks
"Fifteen. You?"
"I just turned 18."
Julie looks around cautiously "We should go."
Briena nods "I know"
Few Weeks later: Christmas Eve
Buffy looks at the Christmas tree from the couch "She's not going to be here for her favorite holiday" Buffy says sadly
Angel sighs hugging his wife "Buffy you know she had to leave sooner or later"
"I know. I was just hoping that she'd be able to finish high school first. We've only had 13 years with her Angel. It’s not fair"
Angel kisses her temple "I know."
Spike leans against the wall in the kitchen 'Merry Christmas luv.'
Somewhere in the
"You OK Briena?" Julie asks seeing her friend's depressed expression
"Just thinking about my family" Briena answers
"Oh" Julie responds
Briena stands "I'm going out. Stay in." she orders grabbing her jacket
"Where are you going?"
"I'm not sure" Briena replies
"When will you be back?"
Briena shrugs heading out the door "Just don't let anyone in. Don't go out" she orders shutting the door behind her
Christmas Morning: Sunnydale
"Momma, Daddy" Annalise yells "Its Christmas"
Angel groans "We'll be down in a minute. No opening presents until we get down there"
Buffy pulls the covers over her head "I'm not celebrating Christmas"
"Buffy" Angel sighs "I know you miss Brie but there are three other kids who like Christmas."
Buffy throws the covers off "Remember Briena's first Christmas with us?" she asks "She was so excited."
"So were Damian and Lise." Angel stands "I'll go get Rory and wake up Spike. Meet you downstairs"
Buffy sighs reluctantly getting out of bed. Going to the dresser she smiles sadly at a picture of Briena with the twins 'Merry Christmas'
Carrying Rory Angel goes up to the third floor knocking on Spike's door "Spike get up" not getting an answer Angel opens the door to find Spike passed out on his bed with liquor bottles all around him. Shaking his head Angel closes the door "Let’s go Rory" he carries the little boy downstairs
Buffy frowns "Where's Spike?"
Angel puts Rory on the floor "Passed out."
"Oh"
"Can we open our presents Dad?" Damian demands
"We can't. Spike's not here" Lise objects
Angel looks at Buffy then at the kids "Spike won't be up for a while. Go ahead and open the gifts from your mom and me. You can open the gifts from Spike when he wakes up."
"When's that going to be?" Lise asks
"Not until we get back from Grandma's" Buffy answers "Go ahead and open your presents"
Angel sits back watching as his wife and younger children open their gifts. His mind wanders to Christmases past. He's brought out of his thoughts by a little voice
"Da me up." Rory says insistently shaking on his father's knee
Angel smiles "Hey you" he says picking Rory up "How are you doing?"
Rory grins "Look Da" he shows his father a new pacifier still in its packaging "mine. Open" he demands "Now"
Angel just looks at Rory sternly "Ask nicely"
Roarke looks at his father confused
"He means say please" Damian explains
"Pease?" Rory says uncertain about the new word
"Please" Angel nods
Rory hands his father the packaged pacifier "Da open pease now"
Angel opens the package handing the pacifier to the baby "Here"
"Tank you Da" Rory grins before sticking the pacifier in his mouth
"Roarke you still have presents" Annalise informs her little brother
"Eh" he grunts holding out his arms
Lise hands him a gift "here"
Angel looks towards the front door seconds before the doorbell rings. He moves the baby off his lap "I'll get it"
"Maybe its Briena" Lise says happily
"She wouldn't ring the doorbell stupid" snaps Damian
"Damian don't call your sister stupid" Angel says opening the door to find a deliveryman at the door
"I'm looking for a Mr. Angel Kelin" the deliveryman says
"That's me" Angel says noticing a couple large boxes on a dolly
"Sign here" he hands Angel the clipboard, "Where do you want me to put these?" he asks gesturing to the boxes "Oh yes this came with it" he hands Angel a letter
"Just inside the door" Angel moves aside to let him in. After the man unloads the boxes he nods "Thanks"
"Merry Christmas" the guy says
"You too" Angel says closing the door
"Who's this from?" Buffy asks joining her husband
Angel opens the envelope to find a Christmas card "Hey guys hope this got there on time. Merry Christmas, Brie"
"Brie sent us presents" Lise says happily
"Your sister wouldn't forget Christmas" Buffy smiles
"Can we open them?" Damian asks
"Sure" Angel replies. A few minutes later the boxes are open and Angel finds cards addressed to him, Buffy, the twins, Spike, Rory, Joyce, Hank, Willow and Oz, Doyle and Cordelia, Xander and Anya, and Giles and a few of Briena's friends. "Here" he hands the envelopes to Buffy then starts handing out gifts
Somewhere
Briena stares at the phone in the bar "To call or not to call?" she groans downing a shot of whiskey "Keep 'em coming" she tells the bartender
"You sure?"
Briena glares at him "You sound like my father" she snaps "one of the last times I saw him he lectured me on drinking." she snorts "Hell he's been drinking for centuries" she laughs "Because of one time he got drunk I exist" she raises a glass "To Dad thanks for getting whacked" she downs it
"You should be home with your family" the bartender says
Briena shrugs "I should be but I'm not."
"Maybe you should call them" he suggests
"And say what? Hi Mom. Hi Dad Merry Christmas by the way I'm in love with Spike. You know your best friend. The guy I've been doing since my boyfriend died. Yes Dad I know he's older but hey he's the father of your dead grandchild"
"I take it things have been bad for you" the bartender states
"Bad doesn't even cover it." Briena replies "You probably don't want to hear this"
The bartender looks around "No ones here. I have nothing else to do"
Briena shrugs "Since my parents got married things have changed. I was an only child until I was five. Well actually I had a half sister but she died a long time ago. The twins were born when I was five my parents got married when Mom was pregnant with them. She was still in college so it was Dad and Spike taking care of us until she graduated. Spike is Dad's best friend... on and off. Years ago before I was born Dad lost contact with Spike and his lover Drusilla, so Spike and Dru became a couple. Then they met up again causing a major assed fight. Dad disappeared then I was born. A few years later I moved in with Dad after my guardian was killed. Other than the twins there's Roarke. He's just over a year old."
"You and your siblings close?"
Briena shrugs "Not really. Damian and I are but Lise always annoys me. I love them but we aren't as close as we could be. My ex and my best friend were killed in an explosion just over 9 months ago. I fucked the hell out of my father's best friend who happens to be the one I'm in love with. Then I found out I was pregnant but that didn't last like everything else in my life."
"I'm sorry"
Briena shrugs "I am too but we'll get another chance sooner or later. Now here I am spending Christmas drunk missing my family like crazy"
"So call them"
"Maybe" Briena shrugs "Now I got to get going" she tosses some cash down "Later" she stands walking out of the bar
Later: the motel
"I'm back" Briena calls entering the room
"Hi" Julie greets from her bed "merry Christmas"
"Merry Christmas" Briena replies "here" she reaches into her bag then tosses Julie a package
"I got you something too" Julie reaching under the bed pulling out a gift she hands it to Briena "Here"
"Thanks" Briena smiles slowly they each open the gifts. Briena opens her gift to find a set of stakes "Thank you Jules"
"I didn't have any money so I thought I'd make you those"
"Hey as Mom used to say you never have too many stakes" Briena hugs the younger girl "Thank you"
Julie smiles "Thanks for mine" she holds up a hunting knife "I've never had one"
"I know. We need to start your weapons training soon. You've got the use of stakes down know we'll work on the others"
"Thanks Brie"
Briena nods her eyes going to the phone
Julie notices her action "are you going to call them?"
Briena shrugs "What would I say?"
"That you’re OK."
"Yeah. I know I should" she smiles sadly "I'm going to get some sleep. If you go out be back by dark." she crawls under her covers in her underwear and shirt
Briena and Spike's dream- NC17
//Spike looks around the darkened room sensing someone nearby. He sees the door open and smiles "I've been wondering where you were" he purrs as Briena enters the room
"Spike" she breathes staring at him "I miss you"
"C'm 'ere" he holds out his hand. He looks her over as she moves in front of him "You look beautiful pet" he says stroking her cheek with his thumb "I wish you were here so I could touch you for real"
Briena smiles leaning closer "I know" she kisses his palm "Every night I wake up needing you" she whispers "needing to be with you."
"Me too"
"Needing to touch you" she says her hands going to his chest sliding his shirt off his shoulders her hands moving under his t-shirt she moves his shirt up slowly kissing his chest.
Spike tosses his shirt to the floor his hands going to her shirt
"No" she pushes his hands away. She looks at him her eyes searching his "I want to show you" she whispers caressing his cheek she kisses him
Spike deepens the kiss pulling her close
Briena pulls away shaking her head then kisses his neck lightly biting his jugular smiling as he growls. "I love when you growl" she whispers moving her lips down his chest. Her hands sliding down his stomach to the waistband of his jeans then back to his chest when she pushes him back on the bed. Straddling his hips she leans forward kissing him. Slowly she kisses her way down his neck and chest smiling when he squirms "You are so cute when you do that" she laughs running her hands down his ribs
"Bloody hell pet stop" he squirms "I hate when you do that"
Briena smiles her hands moving to the waistband of his jeans. Moving down she kisses his navel. Her eyes lock on his as she slowly undoes his jeans sliding his jeans down his hips tossing them on the floor.
Spike watches awed as his love's hands lightly stroke him "Briena" he growls
Briena looks at Spike with a faint smirk "Know what else I've missed?"
"What?" he growls warily
"This"
Spike groans at the feeling of Briena's hot mouth "Briena" he groans "trying to kill me luv" growling as Briena chuckles. "Briena" he says desperately as he feels his release approach
Briena whimpers sensing his approaching release as he tangles his hands in her hair Briena's eyes meet his as she lightly scrapes him with her teeth
Spike growls at the feeling of her teeth as he explodes his world going black
Briena looks up licking her lips slowly crawling up to him
"Your trying to kill me aren't you?" Spike groans opening his eyes to find Briena smiling at him
She leans down kissing him her tongue tangling with his "I missed tasting you." she purrs
Spike grins "Time for me to show you how I've missed you" he rolls her onto her back
Briena smiles cocking her eyebrow "You gonna bite? Cuz I love when you do" she watches as Spike slides his hands under her shirt
"Oh yeah" he smiles leaning down he kisses her exposed skin as he removes her shirt tossing it on the floor. He caresses her breasts as they watch each other
"Spike" she whispers arching into his touch her eyes never leaving his
Spike smirks "You like?"
Briena nods wordlessly
Spike leans down kissing his way to her stomach. He nuzzles her belly button his hands going to her jeans. "You smell so good" he growls as he removes her jeans and panties tossing them on the floor with the others
Briena watches as Spike lowers his head gasping as his tongue touches her. "Ohhh"
Spike smiles at the sound
"Spike" she hisses as he slides his finger into her
"You like?" he purrs
Briena nods "More" she demands arching her back whimpering when she feels another joining the first
Spike groans at the feeling of her clenching around his fingers leaning forward his tongue lightly strokes her clit
"More Spike" she demands lifting her hips seeking more contact "Harder" groaning when he sucks harder adding another digit "Spike" she shrieks her body screaming as pleasure hits her
Spike grins crawling up to her he kisses her
Briena stares at him breathlessly
"I missed your taste too" he smiles
Briena glares "Shut up and fuck me all ready" she shrieks as Spike slams into her sensitive body.
The room is filled with the sound of bedsprings creaking, gasps, groans, and whispers of "I love you"
Briena bares her neck to Spike "Now"
Spike changes face nuzzling her neck before his fangs gently pierce her neck.
"Spike" she gasps//
Somewhere in the
"Spike" Briena gasps sitting up in bed
In the other bed Julie sits up "Briena?" she asks sleepily "What's wrong?"
"Nothing" Briena lies
"Come on something is wrong" Julie says turning on the light
Briena shrugs
"Oh another dream about Spike" Julie nods "Want to talk about it?"
"No"
"Oh a sex dream" Julie remarks "There is only one way to get rid of a sex dream; find some guy and fuck the hell out of him"
"No way" Briena responds
"Why not?"
"I'm not ready to sleep with anyone else" she stands "I'm going out for a while. Stay in" she orders pulling on her clothes
"Where are you going?"
"I don't know" Briena replies slamming out the door
Sunnydale
Spike sits up running his hand through his hair 'Briena. God' he reaches out to grab his cigarettes he lights on then pulls on his jeans and shirt. Standing he leaves his room heading downstairs finding some presents open and the tree lights on. Going into the kitchen he finds an envelope and a note addressed to him. Picking up the note he reads it:
"Spike at Mom's. Brie sent a package this was in it along with gifts. We'll be back later to finish opening gifts- Buffy"
Spike tosses the note in the garbage as he grabs a container of blood from the fridge. Sitting at the counter he opens the envelope finding a Christmas card. He smiles sadly pulling out the card
"Merry Christmas- love Brie."
Spike finds a letter inside the card. Opening the letter he reads:
'Spike, it’s Christmas and supposed to be a time of goodwill. Whoever came up with that deserves to get their ass kicked. In the words of Cordy 'bitter much' I'd say 'drunk much.' I'm kidding I'm still somewhat sober I'm just exhausted.
This would have been Emma's first Christmas. Something tells me she'd like Christmas.'
Spike smiles 'That she would'
'It would have been fun to see her on Christmas morning, to see her face when she saw her presents. The wonder in her eyes at the new objects, her little hands grasping them. The sound of her laughter. I miss her Spike.
Its weird this is the first time in 13 years we haven't been together for Christmas. It’s always been me waking you up on Christmas Day and dragging you down the stairs. We aren't going to have that with Emma.'
Spike jumps startled as the phone rings. "What?" he growls in greeting
"Hey" Briena greets softly
"Brie" he breathes "Merry Christmas"
"Yeah"
Spike folds the letter putting it in his pocket "Where are you luv?" he asks hearing loud voices in the background
"A bar"
"Why?"
"No reason." Briena replies leaning against the wall "I needed to get out for a while and this is where I came." she sighs "Everybody get their gifts?"
"I guess. I've been asleep all day"
"Passed out?"
"Yea" he admits
On the other end Briena slides to the floor "Do you ever wonder what it would be like if Emma had been able to celebrate her first Christmas?"
"All the time. I think your right she'd have loved Christmas"
"Hold on" Briena says
Spike listens as she calls to someone "Toss me one"
"I'm back" Briena says opening the beer
"On your way to getting drunk pet?" Spike asks
"Not sure yet." Briena replies taking a drink. "So everyone still at Grandma's?"
"Yea." Spike answers "Your Mum left a note saying that when they get back we're going to finish opening gifts"
"So you haven't opened mine yet?"
"No. I'm still reading your letter"
"I think you'll like your gift"
"I like whatever you give me" Spike says hearing a car pull up "Your parents are back"
"All right" Briena sighs "Love you"
"Love you too" he smiles "So what are you up to these days?"
"Besides missing you guys? Uh not much. Patrolling mostly. Taking on odd jobs every so often."
"Being good?"
"Mean am I sleeping with anyone?"
"I didn't ask that." Spike protests "We made a deal"
"I know don't ask and don't tell." she smiles
The front door opens "Spike have you been smoking downstairs?" Buffy calls entering the mansion
"Bloody hell" Spike groans dropping the butt of his cigarette down the drain "No" he yells
"Spike" Briena laughs "mom is so going to kill you"
"She won't"
"She better not I still have you on hold" Briena laughs
"Do not" he argues
"Who's on the phone Spike?" Buffy asks entering the kitchen carrying Rory
"Tell her it’s Elvis" Briena laughs
"Hey Slayer did I ever tell you I vamped Elvis?" Spike asks with a smirk
"Spike is that Briena?" Buffy demands
"No its Elvis" Spike replies
Buffy puts Rory down placing her hands on her hips "Give me the phone you stupid vampire" Buffy yells
"No" Spike replies
"ANGEL" Buffy yells "Spike won't give me the phone"
"Don't act like a child Slayer"
"Spike I want to talk to my daughter, now give me the phone before I stake you" Buffy says angrily
"Hold on a sec" Spike replies "Pet your Mum is threatening me."
"I know I can hear her" Briena laughs "you better give her the phone before she gets really mad"
"Good talking to you kid"
"You too. Later" Briena says
"Here Slayer" Spike says handing the phone to Buffy
Buffy takes the phone "Brie?"
"Hi Momma" Briena greets "Merry Christmas"
Buffy frowns hearing the sounds of drunken laughter in the background "Are you at a bar?"
Briena rolls her eyes "No Mom I'm at the library" she replies sarcastically
"Don't talk to your mother like that" Angel snaps picking up the extension
"Hi Dad" Briena greets speaking louder as the drunken voices get louder "How's life?"
"Where the hell are you?" Angel demands
Barely hearing her father Briena sighs "Hold on a sec" she looks around the room "Shut the hell up before I slam your heads into the wall" she yells
"Why should we?" yells a green demon "You couldn't hurt a fly"
"Oh really?" she smirks grabbing a pool ball she hurls it at the demons head with a loud crack. "Now keep you voices down I'm talking to my parents" she turns back to the phone "I'm back"
"Briena did you just hit a human?" Buffy demands
"Nah demon. He deserved it he's a slob"
"Are you drunk?" Buffy asks
"Technically no. I'm just really wired. I haven't slept more than three hours in two days."
"Nightmares?" Angel asks
Briena shrugs "Yeah." slinking to the floor
"About what?" Buffy inquires
"Stuff" she replies vaguely 'my daughter. My lover. Who I am. What I am.' "Different things."
"But otherwise you’re doing OK?" Buffy asks concerned
"Not a junkie yet" Briena offers
"That isn't funny" Angel growls
"Sorry." Briena says sheepishly "It was a joke"
"That isn't something you joke about" Buffy tells her daughter "we just want you to be safe"
"I am. I'm not five anymore. I can take care of myself."
"We know we just worry" Angel replies
Briena sighs "Don't. I'm fine." she looks at the clock as she stands "I gotta go. Tell the midgets and everyone I said hey. Later" She hangs up staring at the phone
Buffy sighs hearing the dial tone "She hung up" she mutters putting the phone down turning to her husband
"At least we heard from her" Angel points out
"I know but we haven't heard from her in months and when we do she hangs up on us. What is going on Angel?"
"I don't know Buff." he sighs running his hand through his hair "Look lets just go finish opening presents" he suggests with a sad smile
Buffy nods heading into the living room "Let’s open the rest of the presents." she smiles at the younger kids
"How's Brie?" Damian asks concerned
Buffy leans down kissing her elder son's head "She's fine. She says hi though"
"Christmas isn't as fun without her" Lise complains
Spike leans against the fireplace 'No it isn't' he thinks staring at the hung stockings absently 'there should be another stocking for Emma'
Roarke senses the sadness in his older 'brother' standing the little boy slowly walks over to Spike. " 'ike" he says tugging on Spike's pant leg " 'ike up" he says holding his arms up
Spike smiles at the little boy "Hey Roarke" he picks up the smiling baby "So liking Christmas?"
Roarke nods "Like Em"
Spike frowns startled "what?" 'Emma? Does he mean like Emma?'
"I think he meant like them" Buffy nods at Damian and Lise
"Uh yeah" Spike nods not convinced
"Come on lets open the rest of the gifts" Damian says impatiently
Chapter 14
New Years Eve: At a club
Briena and Julie enter the loud club. Briena wearing black leather pants with a black leather corset and combat boots. Julie wearing a black leather mini skirt with a tank top and heels. Briena looks around trying to get a sense of the people around her. She grabs the nearest guy dancing up to his seductively needing the closeness of a body
"Brie" Julie hisses
"Not now" Briena snaps "If we get separated I'll meet you at the bar in half an hour" she smiles at the guy her body moving closer
Julie frowns at her friend's reaction then grabs a guy dancing with him trying to block out her friend's reaction
Half an hour later
Briena finds Julie at the bar waiting "hey" she greets
"What was that? It looked like you were a cat in heat" Julie murmurs
Briena shrugs "I haven't had sex since Vegas" she glances at her watch "We need to head out"
Julie nods following her friend outside "So did you do him?" she asks curiously
Briena shakes her head looking around the darkened alley "No I just needed the contact"
"Why didn't you?"
"I'm not ready" she snaps
"So who was the guy?" Julie asks curiously when she sees her friend's look "The guy you reject all the other's for"
"No one you need to know about"
"Is it Spike?" Julie asks seeing her friend's reluctance she continues "You call out his name sometimes"
Briena looks away the raises her hand to her neck lightly tracing the nonexistent mark "He's my mate" she says softly
"What do you mean?" Julie asks
Briena notices a park across the street "Let’s go talk over there"
Julie follows the older girl across the street to the park. As they reach a park bench she sits down "So?"
Briena leans her arm against the back of the bench "Spike is a vampire"
Julie looks at her surprised "What?"
Briena smiles at her friend's reaction "My father is a vampire"
Julie nods "I'm half demon too"
"I'm neither human nor vampire." Briena tells her "Unlike you and the others I wasn't conceived or born in the normal sense." she explains to her friend how she came to be and some about her parents.
Julie stares at her "Wow." she frowns "How does this relate to Spike?"
Briena looks at the sky "My father was known as Angelus for 150 years before he was cursed with his soul. Dad sired Spike also known as William the Bloody."
"So your mate is also somewhat your brother?"
"For lack of a better term yes"
"And you love him?"
Briena looks at her friend nodding "Yes I love him. He loves me too"
"Do your parents know?"
Briena shakes her head "God no. They'd wig. My Mom, because Spike annoys her. Dad because he sired Spike and because all that happened between them."
"Like what?"
"They shared a lover. Her name was Drusilla. Dru loved Dad more than Spike." Briena frowns "Not more really just more intense." she sighs "Then add the fact that, though they never admitted it, I think Spike and Angelus were lovers."
"Whoa. Are you sure?"
Briena shrugs "They never told me but something tells me they were. I know that when he got his soul back they weren't but when Dad was Angelus I don't know."
"So you..." Julie trails off
"Angelus and I share a lover. Since Angelus is also Angel my father that means my father and I share something more than looks and genes."
"You've fucked the same guy"
Briena nods "See what I mean by my father would wig"
Julie leans back looking up at the sky "Can I ask you something else?"
Briena shrugs "I'm an open book right now" she says with a laugh
"Who's Emma?"
Briena looks at her surprised "What?"
Julie looks at her friend "Sometimes you cry out for Emma." she sees the hesitation on her friend's face "You don't need to tell me."
Briena closes her eyes "Emma is Spike and my daughter" she whispers her voice tearful
"Oh" Julie whispers
Briena wipes away her tears "It was too early. She was too small to survive. She'd be a few weeks old about now."
"I'm sorry" Julie whispers wrapping her arm around her friend's shoulders
"Thanks" Briena wipes away her tears "We better finish up here"
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